i control only me

2006-02-06T21:38:00.000+08:00

todae.as per normal every week same task to do.homework tuition tats basically it.early in the morning people make me piss!!!! someone else tok i kana face the scolding.where got fair? i raised my voice and said its not me can its them la.walao.bias la the people toking monitress so wad big fuck arh.after skool went to compass with jaslyn and sandy.bought mum her contact lenses and wanted to bank in money but so many ppl then i walked off.so i went home wit jaslyn coz she oso taking da train while sandy take the bus.jaslyn gonna watch i not stupid 2 wit mum and sis so she drop at dhoby ghaut.on the way,tis girl from nan chiao talk so loud la.i and jas was like looking at her.like wad the fuck cant you tok any softer and she was toking and toking but noone replys.haha.total retards.so later in the evening went for tuition.i dun really understand can but take time la mayb can get it la..hopefully.it seems my interest is on a maths first la.wateva.
yesterday went to johor bought new school shoes.some vans brand la.watever i dunno la.ate popiah throughout my journey back home.
then last saturday went out wit baby and then wanted to go see chingay so thought meet wit erna and ppl then skali erna went home then mcm kene pang seh ar by ppl.aiya wateva la.then went to cheers la to buy beer then meet wit tasha la.so long never see her.watch that damn shit fer awhile then went home la.no mood ler.next time i never wanna make any dates wit anione.let ppl make dates wit me.
chicken neh neh.

2006-02-01T19:18:00.000+08:00

i heart you baby.

disgusting when people make up story

2006-02-01T19:12:00.000+08:00

hadd fever todae.called mum at 4 to pick me up after school as i will b having tuition.mum's hp engaged and gotta find out tat it batt was flat.y sick out of the blue moon watever.there's ss test,chemistry and also maths!!! stress!!! my head is pumping real hard.mum and dad went out to buy food.left at home all alone. i dunno whether tat is a make up story or wad la.simply plain rubbish la.macam tak tau malu la.i mean different party sae a different thing which one rite oso duno.kental siak budak2 ni.rubbish...tats it for now.im off.

cny boring.

2006-01-31T10:44:00.000+08:00

bored.he went to play some lion dance thingy.wa lame shit.asked me to follow along and im like i wont can.malu sabrina je. so helped mum with her order.then i got 4 dollars hong bao.aiya betta then nth rite.slept till it was like 7.mum woke me up saying wanted to go to danish's hse.haha missed him loads..hehe...so siap2..took a cab there as per usual mummy dunno how to take bus.reach there thinking noone's at home coz the door is closed as usually the door is wide open.nasib my auntie at home.but then danish not at home..hurm!!! auntie called my kazen to come back home faster.we were there like at 8 something.they came back at 11 bole.by then my dad da come to fetch us home.played with him for awhile.so gemuk and his legs freaking strong onli 2 months old bole stand on his feet la without tat much support.then my mum put him to sleep he can actualli sleep bole.he sleep areadi then went home la. smp home arnd 12 plus..remove make up change baju then go sleep lorhx..thats all for yesterdae event....miss you afy.

simply life

2006-01-28T16:46:00.000+08:00

went to queensway with him.my old bag koyak bole.wateva then wanted to go back to his place then he got no small change then i walk and went to da shell staton to change money for him.then when i went back he walked away thinking i sengaja wan to leave him la.i went after him but he was too far that i was pissed that i actually hailed a cab home.sick ass!!! im freaking pissed.his calling me la..its like im so pissed that got no mood to tok la.aniwaes watever la.
lets forget it.so long i never blog veri veri bz la.walao i damn pissed la.she thinks she damn good la shout at me.i was like telling jaslyn she think wad i her small sister can shout at.freak shit.aiya but i got over it after awhile.and ya also something.people comended abt HER and the boyfriend he was like so kudut and act stylo milo.no offence la.frankly speaking i ever see tat guy before la.then SHE was wearing heels la and as per usual using giordano product t shirts and pakai sone long skirt till her knees.ppl said she look like mak mak bole.ahah!! stop toking abt her.sometime i get sick bitching abt her...enough said.i wanna get down doing some homework or mayb revision if i rajin.

sometimes its hard being someone like me.

2006-01-21T17:58:00.000+08:00

im finally updating its been like centuries since i actually blog.ahah! im freaking bz bombarded wit hw and tuition.argh!!! but who cares its fer my future yupz. met you todae.oh i realli miss you loads big time.im sori fer being ingnorant with you.i dun mean it its simply i have to study.you told me ur not worried abt me.im glad coz u know whats happening to me.got tuition tomoro.loving it thoughx.not forgetting yesterday's event haha..a lizard was on fat pig's skirt.she actualli her ass out in shock i guess.somebody told me she cried.haha.obey good.nana broke the news to me.if i was there i would realli laugh at her real loud.and ya another thing she critizing abt some ppl not thinking she is also fat.retarded asshole.and also sheactualli put her trust to her bf to go to her house to take her skirt.its like is he like ur husband and like they are like togetha fer some time oni.me n bf are like a year plus and still i never fully give full trust wad.stupid.okay2 forget about her.
Now suppose to get ready now but mum's not back yet.muz wear baju kurung argh!!!rubbish!! some close frend of my mum daughter wanna get married.kena rewang.dudu ass y muz it b todae. tats all lor.i dunno wad to sae ler.

i hate you fucker.all your deeds will be replaced.

u suck big time asshole

2006-01-16T16:02:00.000+08:00

im gonna hate u now and forever.i swear.since u love hearing things let me tell you.you are one freaking ass.dun try to determine things yourself you are simply a nobody big time.so wad ur an instructor wad does it prove me?? so wad if u got a a level cert? izzit even good? have i ever discriminate you?? never right.have i ever tell wads ur wrong doing?? never??!!! I NEVER CARED ABOUT WAD YOU DO!!!! so wads the problem.u one big liar.all u do spent ur money like no bisness.then u sae no money.wad attitude is tat.ppl have to pay for ur everything.ey wake up la u r aready 21 la. u put brain at ur ass ???!!!!guess why ppl hate you simply ur atitude sucks big time.ey dun act big la.ur a pokai la.even fandy give te mother money la. u one cent oso never give la.then want to tok big.ppl spent money one u thousands and thousands of dollar u simply take things so easily.then u can sae i bubble la blame ppl.not true izzit u get watever tuition u wan.mum spent 400 on ur tuition.i oni 200 la two subject oni la.you got all the concen wen u are young.mum leave me on my own wen im onli primary 4 at that time ur all big liaoz.sec 4 rite?!!then not thankful.im never rude to anione la.show some respect and you dad since you said you hate me i dun need you to sae im a pelacur or sial.wad rite you have to sae.how would you feel i was to call ur mum one.u'll hate it rite.all the man in my house ur all useless bums la.all u do is live out on mum and me.ey freak think again i paid fer ur tuition wen i was younger as mum didnt have enough money.be thankful for it.if i was so selfish u think i even care.all u care is fer your gf family.next time u'll be like dad.hated by all.since u love to boast abt her .live with her la ask her pay ur skool fees la.easy wad rite.wen uwant something u come cuming to mum asking for money.u never even remember to buy gift for her burfdae or mother's dae.that i dun mind ur not even at home.do yuo even have a heart.everyday i have to stand by mum.i too need a life.im always wit my mum 5 days a week.will you please spare time with her. mum complain i go out always.i oni go out on sat and sun.you know y she ask me to stay at home coz no one is at home by her.think la.sometimes i feel im like ur elder sister.hey im ur lil sister.i dun understand.cant u simply appreciate a bit..

I HATE PPL LIKE YOU

2006-01-09T22:40:00.000+08:00

YOU LOVE TO CURSE ME I NOE! WADS THE PROBLEM?!!! U HATE ME!! FINE!!YOU WANNA CALL ME POMPUAN SUNDAL UR CALLING UR MUM ONE TOO.ASSHOLE!!I hate you reallllyyy!!!!CURSE ME I'LL NEVER SUCCEED IN LIFE FUCK YA ROTTEN LIFE!! SUCH FATHER I HAVE.ENOUGH OF HIM...

went out wit baby to buy things.first time in my life i actually see him shop his ass out.she like bought tis and that toy for the brother la and bought me a skirt can.haha.went to mustafa centre wanting to buy mp3 but then sae to ex.wadever lorhx.my legs are like breaking.haha
okay2 i wanna go call baby.THANK YOU HUNNY.

CHAOZ.

im loving it

2006-01-08T00:02:00.000+08:00

woke up like arnd 9.ahah! i was excited about going tuition until stupid tuition teacher of mine said it was postponed.freak it!!! i simply just rot then did this blog of mine.and lata arnd 5 i went to follow mummy do some groceries and also went to my kazen's house.so long never see my nephew.He so cute kayz!!! I actualli taught him how to stick his tongue out.haha.I simply love his smell so cute.baby' johnson's bedtime lotion.haha.ate mcdonald's beef fantastic.erm mum said it was fine but to me not at all la.didnt like it la.then went to prime at tampines.makan rojak.after that wanted to buy contacts fer camp.dad was like bising.irritating.big ass!!!abit abit say we all pokai.of course la.i never work wad no brain!!! sickening la.the more i say these thing i get veri angry.okay2..take a deep breathe!!! i n!!! out!!! in!!! out!!! much betta.ahah!!
suppose to sleep liaoz.baby told me too..haha poor baby got guard duty.take care hunny baby.
good nites.sweet dreams!!!

picking up with things

2006-01-05T19:26:00.000+08:00

school starts to pick up todae.interesting.. people in my class actually came toking to me.guess its becoz of my big mouth!!! ahaha!!aniwaes i need to make frends wit ythem or i'll never be able to have fun during camp..rite rite asses??!! abit boring first part of the dae we actualli rot our asses off!! mark chan wasnt even in class can..haha...recess time.as per normal la..most amazingly nana wore a long uniform can...haha..she said she wore sarong todae..haha.so funny.kathy another one kept pestering her to tell her wads she werk as during the hols.she told us something to do open leg.like wad te fuck is tat job lei.gonna ask till she tell for as long it takes.sandy werks as some ticketer at movies.hmm..shud have ask her to actuallli recommend me.i was bored la at home rotting my freaking ass off.aniwaes tomoro there's early dismissal but fer wad i still got cca wad.stupid lamers.haiya hopefully ms asma came yesterdae's rehearsal was abit ugly i a way.argh!!! so paiseh man.hey many ppl say my specs are nice okies.haha!!
gonna study biology.haha.jaslyn didnt believe me study till i actually told her what is protoplasm full detail in the book.ahahaha.

adioz ppl.

im speechless

2006-01-04T21:02:00.000+08:00

me.stupid. i realli cant stand myself frends simply eat yarhx from the back n wad da fuck.i simply dun like it.wanna do things never do behind my back la.nak buat jahat buat depan aku la sial.fucked up.btw who cares i dun need ''true''FRENDS just a bunch of nuisance!!!!!! watever la.baby's still here by my side.after all its so true my baby say never stick wit frends they never help you wen ur in trouble.IM SO REALISING MY MISTAKE! so let me put my studies my first priority.fuck wit everything.my goal is to be 16 n club wit my baby cayang and pass my tests and exams with flying colours.please frends no disruption plz.thanks.

okay2 let tis shit of my mind.ahah.got my new specs.yay!! my specs oh so beautiful.you dun like it so wad i would sae u dun have nice taste.todae skool was like okay la.boring la without nana and kathy they all.but got jaslyn at least not too bad coz been wit her since primary skool.haha.so many toks like hell until my ass so hot!!!then after skool got cca.ms asma never come.guess wad erna become the conductor.haha.so funny.stupid pig wore long uniform can??!!!!stupid specs of her as well suck big time..haha.until 4 pm oni rehearsal.nadh and erna kana do all the things too bad last time suke slack now all in your hands..haha.so me went home wit nadia and siti took bus 82.always bitching about her.haha.enough of me toking wait later can get retribution better not.haha.thanks baby you bought me new running shoes.love you so muchie..

i hate you biatch.no wonder your mum treat you like tat.

first dae of skool

2006-01-03T15:45:00.000+08:00

Sucks big time.skool totally bores me out todae.had spotcheck which i easily got away.my frends complain my skirt is short but never get caught.WOW!! amazing its like above my knees.haha.my form teacher is my A MATHS teacher.ughh!!! let me tell you his name is mark chan.haha.my co-form teacher said cannot wear fancy watch.like wad the fuck.got other girls wear watches like mine.stupid just becoz there's diamond fancy ar...stupid.then had photo taking then muz pay 3 dollars wad the fuck.bought ankle socks so nice n comfortable.the people of my class was like eee!! some so nerdified n also veri naive.cant believe it.got camp next week at sparkc like wad the fuck!!! never gonna celebrate my anniversary wit baby before actually going.haha.i out.wanna sleep sleep sleep.no need to study.haha.school will start officially on the 3 week.yahoo!!!

argh!!

2005-12-30T10:41:00.000+08:00

yesterdae was damn shithead!! baby said i changed. arghh!! did i even???!!juz becoz i cant follow his bidding he got so pissed.but i've to think about my situation also wad rite.sometimes i wonder why izzit so hard to please others when they themselves cant please us.sometimes i juz feel like letting go but its simply so hard.i so hate his attitude sometimes when he show me tis fucking look.it makes me wanna punch his face big time.baby stop doing tis okiez.i rrealli love you loads you noe tat.todae im gonna meet him at yishun.im off to bath.chaoz.

its.finally.done.

2005-12-28T14:24:00.000+08:00

my blog finally done.wow.haha.i still need some touch up.haha.todae im fuckin bored.never go out.my mum la juz now sae wanna go her frends house then tak jadi.wad fuck.enough of it my boifrend is also rotting at his house.poor baby.im thinkin how to tell about tis cuming pit to mummy!!! shit im so scared!!! argghhh!!! help me.yesterdae met em n atam at tanglin..im so shocked atam so tall n in fact taller then me.stupid atam y grow so fast??!! we tok about some lame shit togetha about fuckin snoop jing,my ex bf.stupid of me to be actualli b wit him.we tok2 until 9.i was actualli late alreadi.wanted to take cab but no money.haha.luckily baby wit me sent me home.so glad.i actually missed him loads cause juz came back from kl n my hp kept batt low then couldnt get in touch wit him.shit head.i had a great time shopping though.went to genting fer da first time.oh my freaking cool till asap come out of my mouth.haha.went to da haunted house.damn it was scary believe me.i actually shouted my ass off.stupid hantu kept wantin to touch me.fuck la.first was the leg luckily tak fall then my hand.guess wad i can actually scream n actually turn around to my mum n scream tis words.."ma..ade dua hantu cam ane nak lari!!" i was about to be in tears.stupid la.never going to some haunted house again!! i was sweatin wen i came out.ni la pasal da scared sangat until forget everything.haha.
i wan to eat la.hungry.
chaoz.

2005-12-28T13:00:00.000+08:00

myfirstblog.

turning it into something nice.im tryin though.i hope.so now im getting down to work.

chaoz.